Let Go And Let God

It’s been a while since I posted a blog. Mainly because we’ve been busy moving in to our new home which is a blessing on it’s own, we also renovated the kitchen, Connor started going to a new school, teaching him how to drive, and so on. In short, Life happens. But if you notice, these are all good things so why did I dragged my feet writing another blog? FEAR. My scan from 3 months ago showed that I have no sign of tumors. It doesn’t mean that I am technically cancer free because I carry a gene that is broken. I started re-taking my oral chemo which has been problematic because of all the side effects. My oncologist and I decided to pause the intake until they can find a better solution, another pill to take with manageable side effects. Fear and anxiety creeps in every once in a while, I try to nip it in the butt as soon as I recognize it but I’m not always successful. Mind is such a powerful part of a human body. It can lead someone to greatness, mediocrity or destruction.

1/27/17 Update We went back to Boston yesterday to find out the next step on my treatments. I saw it coming but it is still surreal to learn that I will need to start chemo asap. My cancer started as Non-small lung cancer with a cell mutation, but through my recent biopsy I've developed a "small cell" cancer that will not respond to Tarceva which is the pill that I currently take as an oral chemo. Long story short, we will tackle the cancer the old fashion chemotherapy way. They will give me a very aggressive dose and it can take up to 6 rounds. Per round is 3 consecutive days, every 3 weeks of getting IV infusion of 2 different medicines. The Oncologists are positive that I can handle it because I'm still young, I'm strong and I'm positive. We're discouraged obviously but I kept telling Kevin that we were blessed that we didn't go through this 15 months ago when I was dealing with the loss if my grandfather, my dad being sick, and dealing

Hello dear friends, I hope that my New England frozen chosens are keeping warm and safe during this blizzard. One benefit is we can snuggle under a warm blanket while sipping on a steaming hot beverage reading/napping/watching shows. Nonetheless, I come with a sad news. There hasn't been much of an update until this morning. A few weeks ago I started to feel a dull pain around my rib area/ upper abdomen. This week the pain escalated to intermittent sharp pains and discomfort. I called my doctor yesterday, she called me back this morning because it took her some time to read my CT scan from Tuesday. It showed that the cancer cells built resistance and immunity from my oral chemo so Tarceva isn't working anymore. My Nodules and Lymph nodes are also changing, they are getting bigger. (To what rapid and what size, I still have to find out next week). The fluid is also slowly filling up my right lung and that were the discomfort is coming from. My local oncologist reached