Choose to be happy 2018

Hello dear friends, I hope that my New England frozen chosens are keeping warm and safe during this blizzard. One benefit is we can snuggle under a warm blanket while sipping on a steaming hot beverage reading/napping/watching shows.

Nonetheless, I come with a sad news. There hasn't been much of an update until this morning. A few weeks ago I started to feel a dull pain around my rib area/ upper abdomen. This week the pain escalated to intermittent sharp pains and discomfort. I called my doctor yesterday, she called me back this morning because it took her some time to read my CT scan from Tuesday. It showed that the cancer cells built resistance and immunity from my oral chemo so Tarceva isn't working anymore. My Nodules and Lymph nodes are also changing, they are getting bigger. (To what rapid and what size, I still have to find out next week). The fluid is also slowly filling up my right lung and that were the discomfort is coming from. My local oncologist reached out to Dr. Oxnard of Dana-Farber Boston who she called "Guru" of this type of cancer because of the range of his knowledge on this. It typically takes weeks or even months to see this specialist because of his popularity and expertise, but God made a way so we are seeing him Monday afternoon (Jan 8). Kevin and I are shaken about the news and we're discouraged obviously, but this too shall pass. We need your continuous prayers for my family since this is not how we want to start 2018. Speaking of which, the paragraphs below were written by myself on New Year's eve.


-------December 31,2017
2017 is indeed the most difficult year for me, no need to elaborate because the people that are closest to me know why that is.
I've come to the point where I either give up hope and just go on auto-pilot, "go with the flow" and just be passive about everything. Or I can choose to live my life to the fullest, love as much as I can, forgive easier, laugh as loud as possible, and punch trials on the face as they come. I choose the second option, how I've been able to handle life's trials is with and through Christ along with me. No way in the world I can be able to stand without Him. And as we enter into the New Year, I hope and pray the we will equip ourselves with God's word and enter the battlefield prepared. I encourage you, wherever you are right now and whatever you maybe going through. Rise up, the battle has already been won by the blood of Christ. It's not too late, so come as you are and ask Him into your hearts. Xoxo Pen--------

On a happy note, in August of 2017, my OBGYN found a cyst a size of a lime. I had an ultra sound in October, and it was completely gone! I'll take that! Now let's kick this cancer's tushy!


Here's is my devotional for today, it encouraged me and gave me peace that God is fighting for me and my family. Love you all, Pen.




Location: Derry, NH 03038, USA

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